In just over a week ago I was in a place where these were my only options....suicide, addictions or anti-depressants....to cope with the intense sadness I felt. I cried every morning before going to work.

This was not a new space for me to be in. It is a very familiar place and that was one of the main reasons it was so difficult. In my 50 years I have spent an enormous amount of time in that place.

Very little seems to go right for me. I don't earn enough money to financially support myself. Without the help of my partner and my ex-husband I would have to live on the street. My medication costs total a sixth of my income.

I was diagnosed with asthma at the age of three months and I have battled with it since then. Although western medicine has kept me alive, I have ended up with many side effects. There are times that I am not sure whether to use the medication that will have an effect on my heart or make me depressed and contribute to osteoporosis. Another side effect is something called Cushing's Syndrome; this causes me to look 9 months pregnant.

Amongst other modalities I tried Reiki, energy healers, spiritual healers, acupuncture, naturopathy, homeopathy and yoga to find relief. When I meet a new doctor I have to make special long appointments because there is so much to discuss. Asthma, Hiatus hernia, Umbilical hernia, Cushing's syndrome, osteoporosis, A tendency for Depression, Addiction, Overweight, Suspected hypoglycaemia and Allergy.....to red meat, hayfever, birds, cats, dairy.

Depression took a hold on me for many years and the addiction I inherited from my parents temporarily gave me relief and then dropped me further into helplessness.

It seemed as if the harder I tried the worse my life became. Another example would be the fact that I have been forced to move home 9 times in 12 years. Trust me when I say what I've written here is just the tip of the iceberg. My life seemed to be spiraling downwards. I did not have the money to put into improving my health, my health was deteriorating and I could not work enough to earn enough to invest in my health.

This also became a burden to those close to me that have witnessed my difficulties. I began to lose faith in the world.

In less than a week of using Amita's products I feel amazing. I still shed a few tears in the morning, and they are tears of joy with a smile in my heart and on my face.

I feel like I have found what my heart has ached for, for as long as I can remember. It feels like coming home, after an immensely trying and lengthy journey, into the arms of a mother. I feel understood, loved and accepted. And no matter what, or how hard the bumps might be after this point, there will be support and love.

Instead of dreading each day at work, I find myself saying to myself that it is another day of opportunities and that I have another day of possibilities to learn.

I used to be extremely judgmental. I now find that I notice a judgmental thought and am able to reframe it into, something like... does that person not have the right to do that or be that? And then I conclude with "live and let live". This is not new knowledge to me and yet it's different – it feels integrated into my being... and I am able to translate the wisdom into the world. Whereas in the past the wisdom existed and I was unable to place it, create it, manifest it, concretize it....take your pick.

Also in terms of being judgmental I would feel anger, frustration, envy and probably a few more strong emotions that don't pop into my mind right now. I know that these feelings have a direct effect on me, my family and also the human race as we are all connected.

I became lost in the turmoil of those emotions and despite many attempts to rationalise, understand and overcome them, I seemed to be devoured by them.

I am a counselor and a healer and I know that ALL can be healed and yet I became someone I didn't resonate with and that was a painful place to be. My life contradicted my knowing / wisdom.

I had an appointment to see a surgeon to repair the hiatus hernia. I cancelled the appointment knowing that it was no longer something I wanted to do. I had waited 3 months for that appointment. I now know that with the help of the Amita products I will probably not need to have any surgery.

I am a very different person. I feel much more positive, which is, something I have not felt in years. I smile and laugh and see far more possibilities in life than before.

The asthma also improved quite considerably, I feel as if I have lost weight.
The dark rings under my eyes have minimised, and people I know are saying that I look different. My digestion also seems to have changed. It seems to be working better than it did before. I have changed from feeling helpless to hopeful.

For me to say the words, "I'm happy" sounds totally foreign. I just wish you could look into my eyes and see the joy I now feel, then you would know how real and true this is for me.

This change has happened in two weeks, it sounds unbelievable. Can you imagine my story in a year from now? I only know what I feel and that is what I've expressed.

Amita Thank YOU.

May 2011